I think that facebook is only a useful tool for those who would interact like a networking demon even in its absence

I think that facebook is only a useful tool for those who would interact like a networking demon even in its absence. That is, facebook furthers their relationships and makes it easier for said networking to occur but harbors little value for those who wouldn't be all friendly up in your face anyway. If you fall into the latter category, it's more likely that facebook offers an equal amount of annoyance and pain as it does social benefits, or whatever. For example it may let you momentarily reconnect with someone but if you don't feel the urge to pour energy into constantly posting on walls, then it just tapers off into cyber silence. Maybe it allows for the virtual friendship, hah, by which I mean, the friendship you believe still exists from a comment or two (if you're a girl: "you look so cute in this picture!") or "like" on a profile post: virtual both in its matter and context.

One positive aspect of facebook is that it lets you slide through time momentarily. And it enables such thoughts as this--when I see pictures of people who went to the same high school as me but are studying, say, in Turkey, I think about how people are like seedpods fermented (to mix metaphors) in the same place and then cast into the wind to make their way and impact on the world. Perhaps more than six degrees of separation, it's six degrees of influence.

The same thing can take on such different meanings based on perspective. "How do I want to get to know this person?" instead of "what does this person think of me?" Even if that thought is "everyone wants to get to know me."

idk it's late and i am extremely tired and yet i am on this thing writing.

bliss

i love the sound of crickets chirping in the summertime nights. and running. and cooking good food and eating it. as someone wise once told me, the world provides adequate resources for happiness. i think maybe that can even be extended, now, to infinite.

we owe so much of our lives to cultivating ourselves, our interests, our character, our loves and strong beliefs. maybe we'll never know "who we are" in a given moment of time, but every day is finding out. you live your way into the answer. i find myself thinking about that quotation more than i do others. perhaps because it resonates the most with what life seems to be offering.

lately i've been having crazy ideas of shaking the boat, changing things, doing one of those finding yourself in the depths of the himalayas while sipping tea with a lama ambles. it has to do with a growing difference i feel in myself. something's changing.

maybe it's hanging out with people who are open and friendly and seek to connect in the world. the people who believe every wall can come down and on the other side is someone interesting, someone who will be friendly, someone who will return your respect for them. i always looked down on that philosophy, on "networking" because of its inherently utilitarian undertones. maybe it's time to throw aside the...hipstercritic attitude.

OPTIMISM. let's see how long this lasts.

i can't wait to go wwoofing. can't wait to feel the impact of consumption, of getting dirty and physical and learning the land and watch it not live up to expectations.