it's you and me madly

so many things.

reading:  http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20130422-feeling-ill-swallow-a-parasite/ which is fascinating as all get go and i think i just made that phrase up. my favorite noteworthy thought in that article came from this quote "While on the plane, I decided to play a game and pretend that it’s caused by the loss of something rather than the addition of something.” i like this because it makes you realize that pretty much everything can be reframed, and once it's reframed it's no longer quite the same thing--the thought cascades it leads to are very different. 

second favorite quote being "Pig whipworm is very kosher."

today was day numero uno of trying out this washing hair with apple cider vinegar business. in the shower the smell made me confused as to whether i was showering or eating and reflexively i began to think about salad. short-term conclusion -- my hair feels softer but smells weirder. 

things i didn't do today: finish that application. BUT i made significant progress & will finish tomorrow. finish stats homework. BUT i did part of it yesterday. make bread. no BUTs for that one. not enough time. 

things i did do: get sources for my epic 12-page paper-to-be. whenever i think of not yet produced works of creativity i think of this one quotation i read somewhere once upon a time, about how some carver was so good that when he looked at a piece of wood or stone he saw the statue inside waiting to come out; yet another example of reframing, because in that case he was looking at what he needed to chip away to reveal something instead of carving something out of something else. 

biked to picnic point and walked to the very tip which they have denuded so there are only a few trees left and instead implanted a fancy amphitheater named after the illustrious ebling family. felt grateful that at least i could walk & see things & listen to music & move my fingers. 

foooood. all i want to think about is food. 

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you know what a really tasty combination is? muenster cheese and figs, in the same bite. flavor overlap yummmumuumum muu muu.

i'm thinking about why my apartment's most appealing place to be isn't the spacious living room but instead the little table right in the entrance where you can hear the constant white noise whirring of the refrigerator (it drives me crazy, subtly); maybe it's because this table is right underneath a light and essentially the center of the apartment, so people naturally gravitate towards it because of physical pleasingness. that makes me wonder whether there's truth to feng shui and consequently, if there's truth to any of the other semi-mystic semi-scientific schools of thought out there.

what would i research if i could research anything?

• cancer. 'nuff said
• our guts (i kind of want to be a GI doctor...our guts are like entirely different organisms living within us!! they're (a) actually epithelial cells and therefore exterior space in a way (b) innervated by a DISTINCT NERVOUS SYSTEM, the enteric, which communicates with the CNS/PNS but is its own system (c) producers of a lot of hormones with systemic effects (d) actually quite closely tied to mental health and emotional health (d) full of microbes who live commensally with us and whose therapies we're just beginning to consider -- like a biome inside us! (e) involved in a lot of disease processes. the downsides being they're smelly and gross.
• behavioral economics
• positive psychology
• the effects of physical space on mental qualities...like why do people tend to sit next to those pillars near the terrace? what makes people group in certain ways?
• food science & food security
• when people are in a room experiencing the same phenomenon, like a movie, i want to scan everyone's brains all at once and see what's happening and if there are any emergent similarities
• how scientifically effective traditional medicine therapies are
• music and the brain
• NOT history 

i think my next food project to make is kimchi.

random thought from the film festival yesterday: sensory deprivation is a really powerful tool, bc ppl get desperate for some sensory stimulus & will eagerly latch onto and have positive emotions for any stimulus that comes along. absence is a thing too, just like how in music rests are just as important as notes--it can be an emphasis for what fills it or follows it.